The last moment of silence

A sneak peek at a chapter from Matt Harris' new book, 'The Fish of a Lifetime'
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The Eg River in Mongolia (photo: Matt Harris / "The Fish of a Lifetime").

The last hour of the last day. I edged out into the run and lengthened the line before flexing the long Spey rod. The line sliced out towards the deep, emerald-green slot gleaming under the low cliff, and I settled into the meditative rhythm of “cast and step”. As the huge fly started to wake back across the glassy green water, the wind dropped and, once again, everything fell silent.

Upstream, at the head of the pool, the water had rushed around me, gurgling its relentless river song as it rushed ever onwards to the far distant oceans of the north, but here in the long mirror-bright tail, I could hear nothing. No wind, no water, no birdsong. Nothing.

Enveloped in the silence, I reflected on the million impossible moments that had somehow managed to cram themselves into one short week: the deranged, exotic chaos of Ulaanbaatar’s fast-growing snarled-up sprawl; the long, long helicopter ride across the endless rolling steppe, and that first glimpse of the stunning, crystalline waters of the Eg river.

I thought of the sharp, frosty mornings, and the welcome warmth of the wood-burning stove in the ger. I remembered thawing out frozen boots and climbing the hill with my camera to capture the first light of the dawn as it played across the wide golden plains beyond the river. I thought of all those sun-drenched afternoons, the star-spangled nights and the magical snow-showers.

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Photo: Matt Harris / "The Fish of a Lifetime".

More memories came flooding back: the wild horses foraging in the high mountain passes, and the huge eagle that had turned on a sixpence and plummeted out of the crisp morning sky to attack the flush of terrified ducks; the howling of the wolves at night, unnervingly close, and the valiant response of the camp dogs. I couldn’t help but smile at thoughts of the beaming children in the remote settlements beyond the mountains: precious, every one, their hair sprinkled with snow and their flat, weathered profiles sparkling with laughter. Back too came the bewitching song of my guide Odhu as he drove me across the vast plains, and the irresistible smile of the proud horseman who had invited me into his ger to show off his horse-racing medals. I recalled his wife’s warm laughter as I winced at the taste of the fermented mare’s milk vodka and choked on the fiendishly strong Mongol cigarettes, while the wind whistled across the wide wild steppe that stretched off for a million miles in every direction.

Perhaps most of all, I remembered the fish. Hucho taimen once thrived in the remote rivers of the southern Siberian steppe, but they have been tragically and ruthlessly culled.

However, in the untouched northern corners of Mongolia, where they are rightly revered as magical creatures, taimen still exist in numbers. To catch one with a fly rod is to touch a hallowed fish from the half-forgotten times before the great Khan; giant creatures from long, long ago, before we messed it all up, with occasional behemoths rumoured to top 100 pounds. Taimen may appear rather long and lean in photographs, but believe me, a taimen in the flesh is astonishingly beautiful. A big one is a true marvel: Scarlet fins and a great flame-coloured shovel of a tail give way to broad, spotted flanks and the dark, glossy head of some freakishly malevolent giant brown trout. The gill plates are painted with exquisitely subtle violets and blues, and inside those cavernous jaws are ranks of vicious teeth that spell only death for any unfortunate creature that stumbles into the taimen’s lair.

Utterly magnificent.

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An Eg River taimen (photo: Matt Harris / "The Fish of a Lifetime").

These freshwater giants seek out the quiet places and lie unseen until some poor wretched creature wanders too close: a hapless duckling, a squirrel that has tumbled into the water, or most regularly some doomed, careless grayling or lenok trout naively exploring the darker corners of the river. Out of nowhere, these majestic assassins strike. A hideous, heart-stopping eruption of swift, savage, merciless killing. If their intended victim is your fly – fashioned to imitate some miserable target struggling across the surface - then be warned: you may just jump right out of your skin.

People will tell you taimen don’t fight — ignore them. Sure, a red-hot steelhead or a plump Atlantic salmon will tear off down the river in a way that even the largest taimen can’t emulate, but tell me about the take. Do salmon and steelhead blow up on the surface like a grand piano landing in the river? No? So are you going to stop fishing for salmon or steelhead? Apart from the occasional jump, taimen are indeed dogged rather than spectacular fighters but the big ones are titanically strong and the take is right up there as one of the most memorable experiences in fly-fishing.

Typically, flies are designed to imitate small rodents, but I couldn’t help feeling that for every squirrel that a taimen wolfs down, there must be a hundred luckless grayling and lenok trout that pass through those same cruel jaws. My hunch was rewarded when my hastily constructed crease fly produced a psychotic strike after just a few minutes of fishing.

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A Mongolian ger (photo: Matt Harris / "The Fish of a Lifetime").

I’d stuck with the same fly all week, and it had persuaded more than my fair share of these great, gleaming killers to come racing up through the icy waters. Wild slashing takes that rewarded the long hours throwing great looping casts across the wide silvery pools. Head guide Matt Ramsay had shown me a trick to translate virtually every strike into a hooked fish. Taimen will often initially aim to incapacitate or kill their prey with a lightning-fast surface strike before returning to eat the hapless creature once they consider it stunned or dead. Matt advised me to employ a long loop of line, much like a salmon-fisher. Once a fly has come under initial attack, I was counselled to simply drop the loop, creating slack and thus changing the presentation, emulating the dead drift of a stunned or dead creature rather than the skate of a live one struggling across the current.

The trick worked like a charm, with Matt’s technique converting almost every strike into a solid hook-up. I marvelled at each fish I caught - lithe, mean killing machines, every one - but still I coveted the big one, a fish to match the fabulous 52 inch giant my buddy Rich Hohne from Montana had dragged out on that first afternoon.

The ‘last-chance saloon’ I was fishing had long been notorious as the lair of a genuine leviathan. More than once, the mighty fish had dragged a handsome lenok off of the line, but according to Matt, in the 16 years that westerners have been fishing the Eg River, no one had so far managed to actually hook this elusive creature.

Angler Rich Hohne casting on the Eg River in Mongolia
Angler Rich Hohne casting on the Eg River in Mongolia (photo: Matt Harris / "The Fish of a Lifetime").

I’d fished the run hard, but now, three-quarters of the way down the pool, my hopes were fading: I found myself drifting back into the enchanted stillness of that perfect, unbroken silence, once again conjuring memories from the long, magical week that was almost at an end.

And then, in one impossible second, that last long moment of silence was over.

From nowhere, a vast, crashing, malevolent blizzard of razor teeth and scarlet fins came rocketing up through the emerald depths to shatter the glassy surface into a colossal explosion of savage, elemental fury. Singularly the most astonishing moment I’ve experienced with a freshwater fly rod in my hand.

It took me a second to register that the enormous fish had missed my fly, and somehow, still utterly shell-shocked, I managed to drop the loop of slack line into the cast to let the fly dead-drift downstream. The trick had worked every time, but this wise old brute was having none of it, and, as the ripples subsided, I was left shaken and fishless.

Matt had heard the commotion and strode up from below. He laughed at my babbling account and calmly suggested I swap the fly for something smaller.


Finally, having been through every fly in the box, I went back to the Crease Fly. I was, in truth, already resigned to leaving without putting a hook in this mighty creature, but then, as the fly skated over that same spot, up came the taimen again – another impossible, demented, blood-curdling strike that left me shaking. Again, the dropped loop failed to convince the fish, and again I was left empty-handed.

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Photo: Matt Harris / "The Fish of a Lifetime".

Then I remembered it. After a few drinks with the guides one night, I had been joking with Matt and his excellent and likeable companions, Bayra and Mike, about the fact that their so-called squirrel flies weren’t actually even remotely as big as the real thing. Stumbling back to my ger, and perhaps inspired by a few slugs of Mike’s delicious, treacly Bourbon, I’d decided to concoct one that was. The monstrous imitation I’d subsequently fashioned on a huge, long shank 5/0 hook had unfortunately been drunkenly secreted away in a remote corner of my waistcoat and forgotten about. Now was the time: I fished it out and it was every bit as absurd as I remembered – a sprawling mass of Coypu fur with a 6-inch tail and more high-density, floating foam than I could shake a stick at. I tied it on with trembling fingers and somehow – with an ugly, overhead cast – I managed to get it airborne and sent it looping out across the river.

As the fly started back across the pool, I held my breath: the foam lip kicked up a boiling, gurgling, foam-flecked wake that must surely bring the giant fish rushing back one last time.

The fly sputtered over the taking spot without so much as a stir, but as it came onto the dangle and I was muttering yet another curse, there was one last, final, impossible combustion – a giant, world-ending eruption that shook me to my boots. This time, the fish had abandoned its diffidence and had crushed the fly in an unceremonious demolition. I struck hard and the massive creature felt the steel and reared its fearful great head in a terrific, thrashing rage. I blurted out an incoherent expletive and heard Matt and Rich echo my amazement, as the fish lashed its huge, flaming tail and rushed down into the depths of the pool, the reel fizzing frantically as I did my best to keep tight to the fish.

Don’t fight? Really? This fish was doing its best to drag me into the river. The monstrous taimen swam powerfully around the pool, seemingly oblivious to the heavy side-strain and the powerful drag, as it sought out its lair. Finally, the giant fish skulked behind a large rock at the bottom of the pool, and I simply couldn’t budge it.

A long impasse followed, but slowly, with Matt at my shoulder, I worked my way below the fish. Now the fish was obliged to fight the current, as well as the deep bend in the ten-weight rod. Slowly, almost imperceptibly, the fish was starting to relent and finally, I managed to prise it from its hiding place. It rushed violently around the pool, frantic now, but deprived of its sanctuary, the taimen was clearly starting to tire. Suddenly, it was up on the shallow flat, right there in the gin-clear water — a gargantuan beast that seemed absurdly incongruous in freshwater. Matt crept forward with his enormous, outsized landing net. Despite its size, it was surely too small to engulf this extraordinary creature.

I drew the fish slowly towards us and then, just a metre or so from the outstretched net, the fish rolled over and writhed in a violent, last-gasp effort to be free. The huge barbless hook skewed around and in a hideous, gut-wrenching moment, popped free. The fish rolled back upright and for a moment, Matt and I were both looking at its vast, motionless form suspended in the icy waters. Matt crept forward with the net but then, with a kick of its great tail, it was gone.

There was nothing to say. Matt came over and clapped me on the shoulder and then we trudged wearily back to the boat where Rich fished three beers out and we sat for a few moments in silence. Finally, Rich punched my arm and broke the spell: “Looked nearly as big as mine,” he grinned. I punched him right back and we clinked bottles, drained our beer and, like anglers are wont to do, fell into reliving every last moment of both epic battles.

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Photo: Matt Harris / "The Fish of a Lifetime".

As we squeezed back into the old Soviet Mi8 and the big helicopter whirred into life and started to drag us back to Ulaanbaatar, I took one last look down at the valley of the Eg River and once more drifted into the countless unforgettable memories I’d been afforded by just one week in this astonishing country. Each and every moment had been special. I thought of the sparkling characters, the wild, unfettered creatures of the steppe and the fabulous, pristine landscapes, splashed in autumnal golds and stretching out forever across the unending plains. I thought of Richie’s magnificent fish, and of the vast serpentine creature that erupted from the depths and broke my heart with its last writhing lunge at the net. Most of all, I thought of that astonishing moment when the huge taimen had first crashed into my consciousness.

That moment, and the moment just before.

That last magical moment of silence.

This story and the accompanying images are excerpted from photographer Matt Harris' expansive new book 'The Fish of a Lifetime.' Harris is an award-winning professional photographer and journalist who has travelled to over 40 countries chasing some of the biggest and wildest fish in the world with a fly rod. Now, some of Matt's most extraordinary adventures are showcased in 'The Fish of a Lifetime', a beautiful new large-format 656-page book, featuring stories from all around the world and illustrated with hundreds of Matt’s beautiful high-resolution images exquisitely printed in full color.


This is a small dataset, but I've seen a 39 incher jump a half dozen times and make long runs. Pound-for-pound, a 4 footer fights noticeably better than a 5 footer.

I'm surprised you're mentioning the river's name.